You think U are the SHit!!
- July 27th, 2013
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Thinking back a year ago, I learned a very important lesson which needed to be hammered in. That lesson was I ain’t shit yet. To get to that point where I am the shit, I have to work at it harder than I ever worked before.
REAL TALK!! __Back in 2002 after College I was a freelancer fresh out of college working at a studio which I was originally interning prior to graduating. It was never a easy gig 24 hour days on major gig days and long ridiculous hours on other, but it was something I loved. At that point I thought I was the shit I had a job out of school and it seemed that this job was about to get better and I was learning so much about different things, I even called in one of my old nemesis from College Ridwan Adhami as the studio was looking for another hired gun. Yeah I call him nemesis and that is a inside joke between us. Beyond that life at the studio was unusual which I will not get into.
At the end of it all we all went our separate was after the studio collapsed due to several missteps. I had many gigs after that and again I though I was the shit, but then I made 2 grave errors which crippled my determination and drive, one I placed all my eggs in one basket and the other I doubted myself. Actually make it 3 I did not follow my dream and heart. It started with me finding a gig, working that said gig then letting it slip through my fingers due to my inability to realizes that this was an excellent stepping stone. I was faced with 2 choices of jobs a job closer to home and the job further from home. The catch is one job I already had the other was not a given. Either way I choose the closer job which turned out to be a bust. That was one strike, then came another gig which was a freelance gig which could have evolved into something bigger. Again I was posed with the incredible decision of choice, I was again doing 2 jobs but I had to choose.
This time it was between freelance and constant pay check. I choose the easy way out. The easy way out I took on a secondary job which had nothing to do with what I wanted to do in my career path that made a decent salary. The plus was at the end it gave me a way to fund what I wanted to do and still pick up a few freelance works. Unfortunately at the end of the day I was burnt out and sometimes was left without a focal point. My work as an artist fell and I was now focusing on another skill I acquired over the years which was the craft of being a game developer, I was still doing art but my major side hobby was learning the concepts of being a programmer. At the time and I still do call myself a part time programmer and I found out my unique skill is called technical artist– HUHH!!. My real passion was that of an artist and I so wanted that back but I was caught in-between two worlds how could I be a programmer and an artist. Unlike most people when I am doing art I cannot write code and vice versa. Also side not my day job had nothing to do with either, it just payed the bills and provided funds and a constant headache. I wanted out and one day I got the out and never looked back. It was a hard journey and it still is a trip. As I then experience another lesson from a person that has made a similar journey and woke up my latent skills and I pushed forward.
With a game entirely created by me under my belt and several animation shorts out it is still a journey and will constantly be work.
Take a step into the current – I no longer work the job that provided the headache. I moved to another state, I am now a freelancer, consultant and Business owner, am I the shit now, Hell no will I be the shit, well I don’t like the idea of being shit. But things are looking brighter and I look forward to the future good or bad.
All part of life’s lesson and making the best out of bad situation. Another thing be thankful what you have as you never know what the next road may lead.
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